Purpose

My emotions have weakened me once again. I feel some sense of resentment towards him. I am playing this senseless mind games with him that maybe would be enoughto waste our time until it is time for me to say good bye.

It is a way to avoid any sensible conversation that can arise with me saying something tohim I will or can regret.

Having him in my life is a complicated issue withme. It since I can not figure out at the moment.

It is like wanting him and yet not wanting to want him. I really do not understand his purpose in my life. Or mine to his....