the evilness

I hate that he does things discreetly, no names no straight mention. You are left guessing. Why else is it done that way but because of embarrassment. Is it so embarrassing to greet your own blood ?

Why is he this way? Why is he so embarrass to be known to say things meant for someone. It is always done in a vague way that you can't possibly think it is for you or for someone specific. He has lied to so many and said so many different things that anything he says is not addressed to someone specific - no names. He doens't even know it gives it less value. Who in their right mind would think it is for them and admit that they assumed it is - and if not to look like a fool? So what value would any words have if it is for everyone?

He has so much tricks, so much game to play. It is tiring and sickening. It would kill him to be direct because it means you will hold to the word he drops if he directs it to one specific person. And yes - that would mean responsibility and he has none. He doesn't want to be responsible. He can be but he chooses not to be - because he is a coward.

He plays with his words. It is good only when it is to his advantage. He is the meaning of the word despicable in my vocabulary. More and more .... I am learning to hate him because everyday I see the evilness he discreetly scatters. Why did I love an evilness like him? A pity that I did. A total waste of a big part of my life that I could have devoted for something else. If not for him I could have had a good stable life now and being happy. He is a total waste of everything I spent on him in my life and he could care less for that is what he is. One who cares for nothing and for no one but himself. What would make him happy, what would give him more and who he can benefit the most. You are good only until he can benefit from you, sex, money, time, things....and when you have nothing & you start questioning or asking for more- he leaves you on your own to handle whatever mess he left you with. and to him - he owes you nothing even ignoring that fact that what you gave him cost you so much, your sacrifices meant nothing, all that matters is what he gained and will gain and if you nothing to give anymore - goodbye liek you never existed.