happy & busy

Currently very happy with the way things are going between Jeremy an I. Been quite busy moving from the old big house to a smaller 2 bedroom townhouse. I have to give away so many stuff in order to be able to get my new place in a descent order. I have complained to Jeremy about a few stuff that I can't fix myself since I can barely hit a nail witha hammer. He was nice enough to offer to help me when he comes back in 3 weeks. I can't wait. :) I told him he can sleep in the other room and he just giggled. He probably thinks he can finally have the chance to sleep with me then. Hah! We'll see. I like this anticipation for sex situation. We both want it bad but we have the same respect to want it at the right time and place. We have come close a few times but we managed to be sensible and rational about it. And yes, it was mutual. This is why I can say he is the one meant for me. We understand ach other so much and if we didn't ave that understanding to give, we have patience to allow time to do it's work for us which couple of times have come through. It is so much different having a relationship with him. We allow time to fall for each other. He isn't quick to tell me he loves me and I am given the time to feel and express it. We are in no restrictions to say it and no assumptions that it will never get there. We care and respect each other so much. It is something good, something wonderful and something I would like to have for the rest of my life.

He left to go back to Tennessee this morning. He promises to return with enough time to spend with me in helping me fix things at my new place. :) I invited him to stay at the condo and I am sure we are both thinking of a wonderful night together by then. It will be the right time - the perfect time - for the right people.

No internet at home yet. I can't transfer my existing cable provider because they don't service the area. I had to sign up for a new provider who can't make my internet work. :(

He will be calling me tonight when he gets there and has quite a few story to tell me. I ca 't wait. By the way, he took a step in advancing this relationship. We have been trying to keep it to ourselves but he finally allowed his co-workers to know, which is really amazing considering he is a very private person.

I am so happy right now. I enjoy this feeling of anticipating, caring, feeling, missing.... I am thankful for being allowed to be happy again. It may not have been the man I wished for with all my heart but at least I got someone if not just like him, better...

I hope H is also happy with his life and has found the right one. It seems like it from reading his blog. It makes it easier for me to move on and be happy knowing he is on his way and that I wasn't wrong to assume it was never me - for once I assumed right. Doesn't seem to feel so bad now to know he never really did love me... whew! am I so glad I never told him about this blog - actually, don't plan on telling J either. This will be for eyes that only reads but knows not to move their lips. I have but few of those.